::11th February 2004 - Louis; psychobabl-y::

Life is like a big piece of sour candy. So incredibly sour it makes you cringe, but you keep it in, hoping for the sweet bit inside will make everything worthwhile. Only there isn't. And it continues, you keep putting another piece in, hoping, and hoping, and hoping but nothing ever happens. At most you get a trace of sugar which brightens your eyes as you have hope once again, just to kick you in your face with another blast of sourness.

Then you get older, more experienced, more prepared, more cynical. Thinking, "yea fuckit, it's just going to be sour, woodefuckingdo". But you take another piece anyway. And another, and another...and yet another piece of sour FUCKING candy.

Why? Because no matter what you say or tell yourself, you never lose hope even if you try your hardest to....ever.

Unless of course, you forget.

but that's a whole different ballgame.

::Valentines day::

I can't seem to remember the last time I actually spent valentines day with someone. I've not been single during valentines day for the past..say..7-8 years? And in those 8 years, i've never spent it with anyone special.

The only valentine date I CAN recall wasn't on valentines day anyway. The post-valentine dinner that included fake wine (bubbly grapejuice), potato skins and a star.

*sigh*

This is my plan for v.day : Alcohol, junk food, laptop, horror movies.

Would you be my valentine?

Please?...

  ::10th February 2004 - James; Quickie::

Just uploaded a new article, check it out here: The Transformers go to the Grammys!!

Oh, and Scarlett Johansson is still hot in her new movie.

And also, does anyone know anyone really rich who would be interested in investing in an independent movie? --> james@suckball.com :)

::08th February 2004 - Louis; almost but not quite, nearly failed::

*SMACK* Reality check. Back to life Louis.

I always think I can get by, for example,  not studying and getting good grades (which by the way, did happen). In fact, I believe that if I step in front of a car or jump off a cliff, there's absolutely no way I will die.

I studied for 10 minutes for an exam today, going to class knowing only what I learnt in the intensive 10 minute crash. What did I learn during class? nothing, because I was usually asleep.

How I felt when the paper dropped in front of me - Get yourself a book in a foreign language, open it to the middle. Now attempt to read it.

Only difference is I have the burden of my grades being pulled under me faster than I'd take off my pants for sex.

I spent the whole lesson cheating, hopelessly staring at strangers' papers who are hopelessly staring at mine. Finally, after my futile attempt to pass, the teacher goes "Don't think anyone scored higher than  2" and dunks all the 25 student's papers into the bin.

After displaying the answers on the board, I realised that I got one answer relatively right, which was worth 2 marks. 2/20. That's 10%.

I'm still trying to figure out how I managed to get onto my University's deans list

I live to take things for granted. I need to get my head rewired.

::Hates arrogant fools::

As hypocritical as that sounds, I really really hate arrogant people and I'm sure James is with me on this. Though I regularly post about how incredibly gorgeous james and I are, or how incredibly skillful I am in bed/everything.

It is usually for humour purposes and I am at MOST half serious.

But then you have people who think they are really a gift from god and aren't shy about it either. I ran into one of these people playing volleyball on Sunday. This conversation took place after I got pissed off.

"You are supposed to face them during their service, how can you expect me to take this whole area?" - Me

"No, i KNOW what i'm doing. You're supposed to be there, trust me" - Asshole

"No look, there's a massive hole behind me, and if the ball goes over me, I wont be able to get it" -Me

Opponent gives a service, goes over me and I had absolutely no chance of getting it. I look at him, hoping he'd realise he's a fucking dumbass.

"No, that wasn't your ball. It was his (the person right-back of me)" -Dumbass

Disgruntled, I decide to just play on. Our team was losing miserably anyway and there is no chance in hell i'd convince this idiot that he's wrong. He's a gift from god, how can he ever be wrong? Then he gives me this SUPERB line to prove his superiority above everyone.

"I know these things man. *Taps on forehead*, it's called years of experience"

Oops. Sorry sir. I'm not worthy. I mean, I guess me being volleyball captain in my school and winning competitions renders me incompetent and useless. 

I guess I should've broke down into a dance after we rotated and he in the same position I was in earlier. Being the bitter person that I am, I stood in the same place he did earlier (facing my team, back close to the net. Opponent's serve).

Ball goes over him, he fumbles and pretends it never happens.

Then I thought, my self-satisfaction is enough. Time is too precious, I could be doing something more productive, like wanking.

James' article on "TOP 5 DISNEY WOMEN!" has been linked to his articles, in case you're wondering.

I'm going to study now. This is scary.